If Only

unrequited_loveMY SPIRIT, SOUL AND BODY WANTS LOVE

LATELY ALL I THINK ABOUT IS YOU….WELL SORTA

EVEN WHEN I KNOW I CAN’T HAVE YOU; I STILL NEED YOU

I CAN’T EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL….IT’S FUZZY, MAKES ME DIZZY AT TIMES, BUT WHAT CAN I DO?

I GUESS YOU HAVE THE QUALITIES OF MY FANTASY GUY

OR MAYBE IT’S BECAUSE YOU DON’T CONDEMN ME OR QUESTION ME…hmmm

ALL YOU DO IS ADVISE ME AND TRY TO PUT ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION

BUT ALSO ALLOWING ME TO CHOSE MY PATH

AT THE SAME TIME YOU CALL A SPADE A SPADE AND CORRECT ME IN LOVE.

I DON’T KNOW WHY I FEEL YOU ARE ALL I NEED RIGHT NOW

EVEN WHEN I KNOW THERE CAN’T BE A HAPPILY EVER AFTER

I DON’T MIND LOVING YOU FOR AS LONG AS THIS LOVE IS ALLOWED TO LAST.

I AM READY TO BE THERE EVEN WHEN I KNOW IT IS TEMPORAL

IF ONLY YOU COULD SEE THINGS THE WAY I SEE THEM

BUT THEN! OUR DIFFERENCES

I CAN’T JUSTIFY THIS FEELING BUT I KNOW THEY ARE THERE AND I KNOW ITS AS REAL AS THE WIND

LIKE A SISTER, YOU LOVE ME

LIKE A FATHER WOULD LOVE HIS OWN DAUGHTER.

BUT I GUESS THAT ISN’T ENOUGH FOR ME

OR RATHER NOT ENOUGH FOR THE SELFISH AND GREEDY PART OF ME

I HAVE COME TO ACCEPT THIS POSITION ONLY FOR THE SAKE OF SELF RESPECT

BUT I HURT EVERYDAY, PRAYING THIS FEELING DISAPPEARS WITH ME IN YOUR ARMS.

YOU ARE SPECIAL TO ME EVEN THOUGH YOU CAN BE VERY VERY VERY ANNOYING

I STILL LOVE YOU FOR YOU

YOU ARE ONE BEING I UNDERSTAND BUT UNDERSTANDING YOU GETS ME REAL MAD AT TIMES

I ASK WHY YOU ARE THE WAY YOU ARE

AND THAT QUESTION CAN ONLY BE ANSWERED BY A SUPREME BEING.

SO I WILL BE CALM AND ENJOY THE 10% LOVE I AM GETTING.

I WISH YOU THE VERY BEST MY LOVE.

I LOVE YOU

ME

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7 thoughts on “If Only

  1. Nice piece.. But the one am not comfortable with is accepting there wouldn’t be a happily ever after.. Anyways u get what u say.. So if 10% is enough for you, then cheers baby doll

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